Lived Experience Forum

[Shaz51]

@Starta, how are you today ? have been thinking of you and sending you tender hugs

[Starta]

@Shaz51

Hello and thank you,

Im really not okay, just sit here day and night, I don't want to be here anymore I miss John to much, I should be with him, I don't want to be here.

[Former-Member]

Feeling for you so @Starta. Is there any way you can be closer to your children and grandchildren for awhile? Thinking of you 🌹

[Shaz51]

Feeling for you @Starta 

what things do you like doing , going for walks are nice

It is raining here , do you live in town , to have a coffee at a coffee shop , some window shopping

[Starta]

@Shaz51

Hello Shaz,

I have major anxiety/depression, john used to take me out, I never liked or really could go out by myself, anxiety stopped me, John understood and he took me out when I felt I could do. I find it nearly impossible now to go out, John was my well like my security blanket.

[Shaz51]

hello @Starta 

I totaly understand , My husband has major anxiety/depression too as well as Inherited depression and undiagnosed Bipolar 11 ,He never likes or really  go out by himself, anxiety stops  him , he wants me to be with him all the time

[Starta]

So many tears I've had today, @Faith-and-Hope, I don't who I'm supposed to tag, but I'm doing ok I guess, just this overwhelming sadness. Earlier I felt so much anger for john, why? I never get angry.

[Shaz51]

sending you hugs @Starta

@Former-Member, @Amour_Et_Psyché

[Faith-and-Hope]

Illness has tak n my husband from me @Starta. There are no guarantees that he will be diagnosed, or accept treatment if he is ...... and the long-term damage he has likely done to his system can’t be assessed yet either. There are days that I am angry, or crying in despair to what it has done to our marriage and family.

Your emotions will run a gammet if different states as part of the grief process Hon ..... try to just accept it in yourself and acknowledge it, as you have just now ...... by saying, I am SOOOOO angry / sad / disillusioned” ..... own the feelings because they need to be expressed instead of bottled ..... and this is an invaluable function of the forums as well. You can say it here anonymously, and hear, “I hear you” and, “it matters” in response.

It matters because you matter ......

Sending you lots of cyber hugs.

💜💐

[Starta]

I'm not wanting this anymore, I can't do this alone, I'm sorry but I just can't. I'm hurting to much @Faith-and-Hope im trying but gosh, I need him so much. I miss his voice, his laughter,his arms around me,his presence, it's so darn hard, one day here, next gone,