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10-05-2018 01:02 AM
10-05-2018 01:02 AM
Re: Depression Dementia Dad
Still waiting for your pics @Owlunar but really gonna have to nod off soon. Thank you so much for chatting, both of you. I feel lost a lot. Sorry you felt down earlier today Dec, hope tomorrows better. I did have a nice lunch out with my cuz today.
Good night 💤
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10-05-2018 10:39 PM
10-05-2018 10:39 PM
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@Former-Member
hey luv, just wanted to check in and see how you have been xxx
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11-05-2018 05:41 AM - edited 11-05-2018 06:00 AM
11-05-2018 05:41 AM - edited 11-05-2018 06:00 AM
Re: Depression Dementia Dad
Hi @Bella1978, whatchya doin over here? ☺. I'm ok, at 0430 the dogs woke me to go out & i can't nod off again . Cold & windy out.
Actially shed a few tears for my mum for the first time since the funeral. Strange how many families scatter rather than come together at these times. I feel alone. You know - i pulled together a grief info package & copies of counselling services offered by mums palliative care team, and anonymously mailed it to each of my siblings & mums. Not one of them has memtioned it or asked if i got one too. Guess we all feel alone in this family of trauma childhood. Stiff upper lip. Hope it helps them a little anyway. Guess i feel more experienced with grief. I've always had to play 'grownup' with them. Its draining.
Bro4 os the only one who drops in regular, but he ihas restless manner (MI / drugs) Rarely stops long enough for a cuppa. Last time i asked him to drop in more since hez close- he said, and i still cant believe he said it, "if you want me to come round cook up a meal for me & i'll come" Then he went on - "tonight, cook something tonight" ... I didnt comment. Then 2hrs later he rings up to tell me not to worry about dinner - he's going over a mayes place... " Didn't have the heart to tell him how pleased i was, grr. I've invited him & bro3 a few times for tea Poor mum, seems they are 'takers' - only want to bother when there's something in it for them...
This week cuz-T is ignoring my emails since i asked him to plz respect my faith amd never again denegrate my God like he dos last week. . Its not a big ask but his silemce tells me he can"t and i'm learning to respect myself enough to not be around people who deliberately insult my soul, and those i love.
I reached out to my cousins to compemsate for the way my siblings treat me but surprise surptise, they are not much different, just more twofaced anout it. Also - i usually have to initiate .& i'm tired. I feel abused though theyre not evem in the room. Its emotional i guess, still hurts.
Dad's battling on, has a weird rash atm - maybe from old winter clothes i dug out of his cupboard & didnt wash first.
Ooo, theres the garbage truck, its 6:30 & still dark
Big day today, dad's specialist & my psychologist apt.
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12-05-2018 05:25 AM
12-05-2018 05:25 AM
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Saw my psychologist, she's glad i was assertive with cuz-T about my faith. ( I need to hear that its ok still). She also encouraged me to put energy into friendships above my family. Showed her one of Bro2 tx msgs & i think she's starting to 'get it' As with dad's Gerentologist, She supports me going for guardianship & poa of dad. I told her i don't feel confident on my own (what if i have another breakdown... ) but she believes in me & said to build up that confidence (hope shes not just patronising). She agrees the siblings would be imposdible to work with, reminded me i love my dad & respect his wishes... and says to apply online & "show them [the siblings] how its done" I like that. The Holy Spirit also reminds me to 'toughen up' & "be strong for i am with you" (Josh 1:9).
Had a lovely talk with friend EM back home last night. She is carer for her 98yr stubborn mum. Kinda feel the added connection now i too am live in 'carer' for a parent. EM & I worked together nursing a while back.
Managed to work out how to turn on my parents gas heater (scares me) & didn't have to ask the sibs for help (like pulling teeth). Its got cold, finally, so I'm glad.
Dad had eye specialist today, amazing setup there in the eye clinic. Dr was amazed how good his eyes are given the 40yr history of diabetes. Theres some small bleeds but not enough to act on he said.
Busy day. Should i be checking in here for support like this here? I donno 😏
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12-05-2018 03:58 PM
12-05-2018 03:58 PM
Re: Depression Dementia Dad
hello @Former-Member, been thinking of you lots today my friend , sending you hugs
My aunty had dementia
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13-05-2018 01:51 AM
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13-05-2018 03:40 PM
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how is today going my friend @Former-Member
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13-05-2018 07:05 PM
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16-05-2018 11:43 PM
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I've lived here almost 5months now, its hard but Lso fulfilling. Mothers Day surfaced a lot o fstress & dad's birthday the week before (trying to get the sibs off their ass and do something) was painful - 1/2 of us bothered. The other three really disappoint me - to say the least... Don't handle their rejection well but finally learning to live without them. It gets lonely.
On the whole things have settled down (thank you God). I'm tired, and bones hurt a lot, but guess i sit well with the caring role (my life calling) which helps.
Dont believe i have long left to live & expect this is my last job on earth before returning to heaven. Knowing this has been changing my perspective on many things (like accepting the offer on my home thats 30k / 15% below my asking price). Its ok.
Dad is ok. Has his new diabetic leather boots fitted & supplied by dva. He says theyre the best quality shoe he's ever had (isnt that sad, sad but good). Took him out for coffee today, he loves the distraction & i got some supplies.
DVA sent a letter of request to 'the executor of mum's estate' (my sis who wont talk to me again), the letter says they want back mums last pension that was deposited into her account 2 days adter she died 😞 I dont know what was in mums account, secretive sis kept all that to herself so - i just fwd it to her to do her job. She was suposw to cancel mums mobile phone plan (according to bro3) but that bill keeps coming every month too. Guess i need to step in myself there. Theres a bereavement application i see online. Oh, so much fiddly stuff to do.
Anyway, probably all boring.
Hey, have to tell ya, dad got himself up the other morning whiile i was preparing breakfast and actually sang this little song as he came out to the loungeroom:
"good morning,
good morning
its great to
rise this late
Good morning,
good morning
to you"☺
made me smile
then the dogs were all over him as he sat down & he pat & talked with them a bit.
How sweet is that 🙂
bye ❤
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17-05-2018 11:00 AM
17-05-2018 11:00 AM
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@Former-Member
Finding the rodent - yay having to deal with it - urrggghhh
Hearing you about the shoes, yes it is sad to think that Dad has not had comfortable shoes.
Love hearing about these things - they are not boring at all - they add to the colour and texture of the fabric of life.
Gather you will need to head back to pack up your house - are you able to get Dad into some respite or will you take him with you when the time comes?
Keeping you in thoughts and prayers.
Darcy