@peace
Hey Peace, Thank you for sharing what is going on, i know sometimes it is difficult to wrap the head around things, believe me i know it, I am going to address your last comment first 🙂
If you felt that you had said too much, you would not have hit post, you decideing to hit post, shows the strength in wanting support. Which you have here, sometimes i write and write and write, and then before i can think about it i hit post, i re-read what i have written, and it almost always seems that i am getting things off my chest/ out of my head, i seem to be relieved or less pressured/burdened when i do it.
There is some good news amongst your post, your new meds are working well, which is really good, sometimes it is very trying and takes it's toll finding something that helps/works, i am glad that you have had the strength to not go down the dark path, it is easy to fall into, i know what it is like also, i fall and i fall hard, that is what is good i think about this forum, being able to open up about our emotions, and address our thoughts and feelings.
Sometimes a diagnosis can be formed early on, and then with treatment and exploration of the sessions, sometimes can make the diagnosis change or it is more complex then initially thought, i was pigeon holed by my last psychiatrist, and i was not comfortable with him because of that. The attachment and the feelings associated with seeing a specialist, i sorta understand, i get the opposite currently, i get nervous and anxiety and really stressed, it is because i have fears asscoiated with what might come up.
Can i ask why you have to wait 2 months? perhaps it might be good to see if you can organise something quicker/earlier and maybe see if you can address the concerns you have?
Peace, you are not alone, i too have low self esteem and i am sensitive also, it makes things difficult when they don't go the way i thought it might, so i come on here, and i read through good posts, old posts from me, or from others to me, and try and see the good.
Hope this helps, i am finding it difficult at the moment being supportive
Thank you
(big virtual hug)
