Mental Illness Fellowship Northern Territory

I think your questioning of the current situation is entirely natural @CheerBear There is a lot of that going on in my world too. Despite things going okay - especially with work - I am very tired and not coping very well with life. Work seems to be harder to get to and get through at the moment. I don't feel like it will all come crashing down but the thought has definitely been there. I can see the signs but I see that as a good thing as I can head them off at the pass - as much as I can anyway - to try to prevent that crash happening.

With knowing how we react to certain things comes the experience to know how to deal with them - at least to recognise things are not quite right and begin to put things in place to avoid them or deal with them when they come.

Part of having such a long history of negative experiences is the inevitable questioning of if positive things will last because we certainly are not used to them. It is very natural that you will be questioning whether you are in a turning point in your life and if you can trust where you are presently at. It is so much harder for those of us with an abusive and negative history to feel like this will not last and those feelings that the inevitable crash will come are very prominent in our thinking - history becomes our enemy here and sadly those negative feelings often rule our thinking. So you are not being negative right now in thinking that things will not last - you are going on your own lived experience. What is different is that you are questioning these things while you are having positive experiences and that may infact help you deal with any negative things that come your way.

I believe you have a strength now tht has grown through the years and that has been shown over the past few months with everything you have had to deal with and get through. Much of what you have had to deal with have been really Big things nd yet you have done that with a really positive outlook. I personally think you have come to a turning point in your life. That does not mean that the world is filled with sunshine and rainbows and will continue to be like that forever - that is not how life works - but you certainly are in a place that you can deal with most things with perspective and insight.

Whatever happens in the future CB you have the tools to deal with it and the support in place to help you along the way. We of course are here with you also and will continue to encourage you, care for you and support you. We don't know what the future will hold Hon but we can work every day to be a better version of ourselves - and that you are doing everyday. I have faith that you will continue to improve in all aspects of your life and hope that the future will present you will much more positivity and light