Mental Illness Fellowship Northern Territory

Why can't one die of loneliness ? I have never been good with people. When I was growing up we moved interstate as dad was with the army. I was shy at school, so was on my own a lot.....not bullied much, just alone. Hell, I wish I was dead, which is stupid, because I will be there sooner or later, and I bet I have a revelation of what life was about......too late. Not making much sense, but just have not been well with a cold, cough, stress incontinence and generally feeling bloody, but I never feel WELL. I hate me! There....I have said it, and it is juvenile and I am just a fat old cow.