Mental Illness Fellowship Northern Territory

Hi My angel,

i know, you are right Karen, the way you and i see ourselves is totoally different to the way others see us, i don't know if i will ever be able to accept i have wasted my life, so many people would do anything to be healthy and i feel so guilty for feeling this way, but i can't help it, i hate myself so much.

Karen you are my guardian angel, thank you for watching over me, i am feeling so down tonight, i hate how i think, i hate how i view others, and i hate having to have been born in the first place, one of the owrst things i ever told my mother is i wish she never had me, i know it must have been so hurtful to her, and i so regret saying it to her, i should have kept it to myself, i have said too much about my inner thoughts, my head is like a tornado of negativity, constantly swirling round the same thoughts, distroying everything in their path.

i will try to apoligise less Karen, i just feel like no one should here what i think of every day, it scares the shit out of me sometimes, i could imagine how confronting it is for others.

Thank you my angel for being their for me, we really are good friends, i feel i could tell you anything and be comfortable.

Jacques