Trouble !

[Former-Member]

this is my psychologist who is leaving. my psychiatrist i havent seen for a while either. i havent formed a ... relationship with my gp and things are hard medically as well. need to gohave a test done that i cant do. but had one... procedure a few weeks agao/week ago? im not sure but it was sort of traumatic and my reaction was scary i think fo the dr she didnt know how scared i was until she did. i tried to tell her but couldnt. its just so hard. i have a friend supporting me and i ahve bugged sane chat a few times.

[Former-Member]

@Faith-and-Hope

[Former-Member]

im tearing myself into smaller parts at the moment with everything. ive been wanting to commpletely pull away from every connection that could ever hurt me again. and then maybe also questioning every connection. im so tired of everything

[Faith-and-Hope]

Please keep connected @Former-Member .....and just break everything down into the smallest possible steps .... keep working with chat ..... thinking if you and staying close in my mind and heart ..... Ho,ding you in the light .....

[Former-Member]

thank you @Faith-and-Hope
i think of you too and everything you're going through.

[Faith-and-Hope]

I know you’re u have survived much worse in that regard @Former-Member .... and I am guessing you were / are dealing with a PD in that one .... I keep thinking that we have to get past the e.d. before we can really understand what else is there ..... but maybe not .... maybe they are all part of one and the same  .... I am so tired, but have to just keep swimming .... and you too .... ❣️

[Former-Member]

PD meaning personality disorder i think? Yeah i think i have traits of a few.. been diagnosed with bpd though im still... sometimes resistant... i dont have an ed at all but i have had some q's raised about... food stuff... in the past - i think though that everything is interrelated i cant seperate out anything as to be able to boxed up and dealt with in isolation. one thing leads to antoher and weaves back into itself or out somewhere else. all the past traumas and coping strategies.. mostly unhelpful strategies etc all come from somewhere and then relate back into many parts of my life. i think youre right in that in dealing with one part of wh stuff, a lot of it has to be exposed... and that is not easy.
I have given up that there is any way to get through anymore. im just lost and tired.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Yes PD = personality disorder, but I was referring to your ex and his issues there ..... you have escaped living with them.

Sometimes we just need to survive whatever is going on @Former-Member ..... and that is how I am feeling now ...... just survive while this thing exposes itself.  We have several arenas happening at once, but wh’s issues are not showing up across all of them yet ..... 😔 .... have to keep walking and trusting that they will come into the light and be seen.

[Former-Member]

oh i see, sorry. yes i think so... with my stuff. but i think your wh has a chance to recover because he has you and his family behind him (not all helpfully... aka mil..) but he has a good opportunity, support and love to help him... i hope so for you and your bd's.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Has to be “found out “ first tho .... hoping at least some of the counsellors are seeing past his “used car salesman” front ...... :face_with_rolling_eyes:😡

@Former-Member