Lived Experience Forum

[skyehaven]

@outlander I have had 5 hospital admissions this year already for over 100 days in, it never helped me though.

[outlander]

thats pretty tough @skyehaven

is there a reason you dont really find them helpful?

[skyehaven]

They keep my safe , but I tend to isolate. And when I get out I struggle to be out for sometime and get really bad for a while.

[Appleblossom]

Hi @skyehaven

things sound difficult.  Sometimes when we connect a memory with trauma we release a lot of energy.  Maybe that is making it harder atm.

I am wondering about the person you were before the relationship failed with that person.  There can be many reasons relationships do not work.  It does not mean that you are not worthy of a decent relationship.

I had low self esteem and felt needy, but to get through self harming periods. I made a strong decision to try and find other ways to manage the pressure on me.

You must have a lot of understanding for dogs if you are showing them.  A lot of patience and empathy...

[skyehaven]

@Appleblossom I didn't have a relationship with anyone. It was a work issue and I am on work cover.

[Appleblossom]

I am very Sorry I got that wrong. @skyehaven

Job security is important and often an essential part of our self concept.

Was it bullying, or did they not realise what happened to cause the injury.

[skyehaven]

I had a breakdown at work almost 2 years ago, they made massive mistakes over 18 months after that in my welfare, than self harmed in the car, in the car park when I arrived December 29th, I owned up, ended up being admitted to hospital for the first of 5 admissions this year, they than tried to get rid of me, claiming I was crazy, cut me off from my work mates, banned me from the property and it destroyed me, as I worked there for 24 years.  I am still on work cover, still employed by them, but will not be going back, as they have caused to much damage 

[Appleblossom]

OMG 24 years... thats a huge part of your life. 

What a wrenching and horrible experience.

Sorry that it happened that way. @skyehaven

What is your dog like?

[outlander]

ah i see @skyehaven its hard to socialise when we are low/distressed sometimes it helps though. you shouldve had some supports when you left hospital though.

wow i cant believe that happened at your workplace! how dreadful for you!

[Appleblossom]

Sorry @skyehaven you described your work problem in an earlier post.

Dogs were a huge part of your life, not just pets.

There are other ways to find meaning again, once your MH supports have helped you become stable.

Transitions are important fo us all .. one or another ... 

Take Care