Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away

[Former-Member]

@Maggie

do you need to talk 

guide me to where if you do

i was about to write on here myself

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member

i have been told the same for years...

oh ok I will just click my fingers together and wriggle my nose

now I am just anotherclone

[Former-Member]

Why do I fail everyone? Why isn't my love enough? Why is it thrown in my face? Why is my good intentions to help dismissed or disrespected? Why do I bother.  I should just disappear from the earth as I am sure no one would notice. Wish I could. And then people wonder why no one cares anymore. Maybe because genuine people who give the all of their heart are sick of feeling unappreciated. So down and tired of it all....

[KobeCat]

Hi @Former-Member

KobeCat here, the overnight moderator.

Sorry things are difficult at the moment.  Let me know if I can offer some support options via email

kind regards,. Kobe 

[Former-Member]

Thank you @KobeCat for your care,

Feeling the need to withdraw into myself and away from the world (disappearing from the earth). Possibly triggered by Christmas looming and the other reasons I stated above, feeling unappreciated. It can be disheartening and I am feeling flat but I will try and push on. Thanks once again 

[Former-Member]

I worry that I came so close to putting so many people through so much pain.  I was so stupid and so selfish to only think about myself. I hurt the people I care about the most and for that I hate myself even more now. I don't deserve them. I don't want to put them through that pain and sorrow but still feel they would be better of without me. My emotions and thoughts are so confusing and I feel so lost and alone in this world. I still have all those thoughts and the flashbacks are still there so nothing was achieved at all.

[Former-Member]

Why does everything have to feel so big? It shouldn’t be this hard to just breathe/be.

[TheVorticon]

😞

[Former-Member]

The tears, the self-doubt, the self-hate, the really big feelings … it’s going to be another great day. 🙁

I worry that I somehow fool people into liking me, and that at some point I will inevitably mess things up and a) I will hurt them, and b) they will see the real me, and then c) they will hate me, and d) they will leave. [And of course if this is as ‘multiple choice’ as it looks, the answer is clearly: e) all of the above.] 

[Former-Member]

not really replying except to say i feel exactly the same @Former-Member - hugs