Just checking in.

[CheerBear]

Hey @Teej - I've missed both of your tags as emails today. I think it is something that happens if an image is attached to the post maybe, I don't know.

I really enjoyed reading your post from earlier today. Maybe enjoyed is the wrong word, but I felt lots of feels with it. You wrote what you did about things hanging over us that threaten to break us. That's it in a nutshell for me too. I feel like there are a few things hanging about for me, any one which I worry could shake things up lots. I've really enjoyed trying to live in a happy lala land of pretending they're not there for the last couple of weeks (being a bit/a lot hard on myself there), but I have to face things I don't want to again now, and I feel like those wheels are coming off just at the thought of it. That fall does hurt lots and I'm not feeling quite as brave as I like to try to be 🙁

Usually this is where I might add something about how sleep might help, or how I can see this sad and worried response is probably pretty reasonable, or that maybe the wheels are wobbly but not entirely off, or about how the little crew and I had a nice day which I can hold on to tonight (which I really do believe and which we really did have). But I don't want to do that right now because I'm not feeling so OK tonight and maybe it's OK for me to sit with that for a bit rather than run away from it in some way.

I really appreciate the space for a bit of a vent, thank you heaps Teej. Totally appreciate that you get it and nutshelled what I was struggling to say, too. It's helped to have heard it in your words and to have unbottled a bit of it with mine here tonight.

(Yay for lilacs and cats 💜)

[Bimby2]

Good to hear from you @CheerBear. I have had knee replacement surgery so to sit at

computer is a little painful but I'm coping. Thank you for your greeting. Very best wishes to you and yours. Bimby2

[Teej]

Hi @Bimby2. I hope you have a good recovery for your knee replacement. I can imagine bending it at a computer desk might still be difficult and a bit painful. Best wishes 💜🤗

[Teej]

I’m really glad you can vent too @CheerBear. I think when we keep it in our head we often make it take over. 

I think we need  la la land a bit, it gives us that break from being on constant high alert. But like you that crash is so big. It’s sometimes life threatening. I am totally with you on being ok with the wheels falling off and just going with it. That’s been my position a bit today, just going with the crappy and scared stuff. Sometimes getting through the really big emotions for me is so hard. 

Im glad you and LF had a good day. That made me smile. I hope tomorrow is a bit kinder to you. Sending image in next post to see if it makes a difference. 💜🤗

[Teej]

@CheerBear 😜😊

[Faith-and-Hope]

Wishing you a speedy recovery @Bimby2 ..... 💐💕

[Mazarita]

Hi @Teej, your avatar drew me in. It looks great! I didn't know you could make them move! You may be a trend starter! 

I can smile wide in an emoticon but doing it a bit rough too. The sleep demon has taken me over for now. Still, I'm awake at this moment and not too bad. The crazy depressed worried thoughts that have been at my mind all day have eased a bit. 

Hope you and @CheerBear get some relief from it too. 

The thing that helped me today was saying in my mind the word 'now' as a mantra. Got me to sleep when I needed to go there. Has kept me slightly sane since then. 

[CheerBear]

Hi @Bimby2. It's nice to see you again. It's good to hear you're coping with your knee even though it's a bit painful. Thanks for you wishes. ❤ for you.

Your post came through that time @Teej, but not the second one. It's the images I think. I had a missed tag from Exoplanet with an image today too. Hmmm.

Can't we just stay in lala land break forever - It would be way better! I thought about the potential consequences of the crash and the things that could make or break, and just how giant they might be. It's scary. Fighting against feelings maybe helps sometimes, but maybe going with them can be the way to go sometimes too, I don't know.

Thanks again Teej for getting it. Looks like we both have some tricky big things to face this week. Hope tonight is a decent one for you.

Hey @Mazarita. Hearing you with the smiling in an emoticon but doing it rough. Crazy depressed worry thoughts are tough, especially when they don't give up for a while. Big hugs for you.

[Mazarita]

Hugs all round...

[Teej]

@Mazarita Sorry you are having a hard time of it too. Slightly sane is always a good thing, completely sane would be boring. Personally I prefer the edge of sanity 😜. 

I found the new avatars last night when I was trying to express myself without using lots of angry hurt words. I looked up explosion gifs and found a heap. With my mood a bit better today I’ve lightened it up a bit. I have one for when I’m going ok again. So I’m afraid it was just me raiding the internet as usual. I have made gifs before but not for a long time. Maybe I’ll have a go at one for an avatar. 

 I will be up and down for a bit still while I’m going through this psyche assessment and waiting to see if I can do the therapy. 😳:face_with_rolling_eyes:. 

Think this should have been on the rave thread 😜

i hope tonight is kind to you Hugs 💜🤗