A long rave

[Mazarita]

Hi @PeppiPatty, as always, good to see you. I laughed when you said 'I digress'. Big hugs for what you have been going through with Mr X. I hope things improve, and quickly. The delicate filagree of the leaves images is beautiful. Yes, rave away here, as you wish.

Hi @Appleblossom, that comment was over twenty years ago. Another person once said that to me. I wish I could let go of my anger about it. At the time, I just felt deeply hurt and misunderstood. 

Hi everyone passing through, hope the evening is going okay. Okay here. Just watched an episode of 'Reign', a fictionalised account of Mary Queen of Scots. I'm into it, a rarity for me with tv series.

[PeppiPatty]

@Former-Member

I'm thinking about you. My husband had some bad reactions to his present dillema and the Psych medication thathe is on.....We are both 50 years old.

You are a  caring person....how you write about your Mum is insightful and so empathetic....Your message is very clever and insightful about you. I so go on tangents.......

[PeppiPatty]

Hi @Mazarita,

What did @Appleblossom write ? 

Can I answer your clever message on medication tomorrow ?

Is'nt Chrons disease a very bad condition ? 

I must see Reign. I've written 8000 words on my novel. The people who havee read it think it's good. I now have a historian helping me.........

[Mazarita]

Great news with your novel, @PeppiPatty. Awesome that the historian is helping you! What period is the setting? Yes, the long rave idea for me is that I get to release some things off my mind. If there's a reply, that's great. If not, that's fine too. Otherwise there's chat. Crohns is a bad condition. The severity is on a spectrum and I consider myself relatively lucky so far, even with two surgeries. In most if not all cases, there is strong, sometimes excrutiating, pain involved, and yucky medical procedures that are embarrassing, make me sick or are painful in themselves. People go through worse things, but I wouldn't wish Crohns on anyone.

Edit: p.s. the comment that @Appleblossom and I were referring to was a gastroenterologist who once told me I 'wouldn't have time to be depressed if I had a baby'. 

[Former-Member]

Good night Mazy @Mazarita, Claire @outlander, @Faith-and-Hope, @Shaz51, Sis @Former-Member, @Owlunar, @PeppiPatty{Thank you for thinking of me}, @CheerBear, @Appleblossom, @eth

[PeppiPatty]

Is "A long Rave," ......"Night Shift" another brain child beginning from you ?

The Doctor who talked to you : 

That is a terrible thing to say. I'm so sorry.

Being an ex 60 hour a week support worker in the community, I have many interesting tales of the depressed/suicidal Mother after giving birth. Not.

Yes. My novel is very exciting for myself. It is set 607 AD in England. I'm trying to keep it as factual asI can. There is little written on these times......

I need to sleepy bye but @Mazarita its wonderful re connecting 

[PeppiPatty]

Hope to write to you and back @Former-Member

Nighty night 

[eth]

Hi @PeppiPatty  long time no see !

Hi too to @Former-Member  @Appleblossom 

Hey @Mazarita

I'm around now if anyone feels like a chat.

[eth]

Good morning @Mazarita.  I'm sorry I didn't respond to your post sharing about the Crohn's yesterday.  I was having a pity party.

It must be really draining to have to go through the diagnostics and treatment over and over.  I feel for you.  

The comment that gastro dr  made is just so far out of line.  And such statements can echo on us for years. 

When I was 27 and had a 2 year old child who'd been 3 months premmie due to a Dr's accident, was (and still is) legally blind, and had delays in gross and fine motor development, I had major post-natal depression (worse for me than any depression I'd had in earlier years).  A 'good friend' who was a nurse said to me "Aren't you over that yet?"  This comment still echos on me even tho' my kid is nearly 29, fighting fit and fiercely independent.  This is all a round about way of saying I understand.  What she (your gastro dr) said was outrageous and unprofessional.  And bullshit, quite frankly.  

I truly hope you are not facing more surgery, with the risks around it that you mention. 

Hopefully your MH therapy team can work out a med regime that prevents the bipolar being triggered, and any other side-effects are properly managed for you quickly.

I share your difficulty in being more assertive with doctors.  They have some sort of power to influence the course of our lives.  I think that's what it boils down to.  And some of them really know it and hold it over us.  It's no wonder we develop that response to them.  I hear you on that.

Sending you all my best wishes and hugs.  Remember to do little things to treat yourself while going through this.   If meditating, visualizations might be helpful e.g. place a colour wheel over the trouble area.  See it starting to rotate and gradually spinning faster and faster until all the colours merge and it becomes a spinning wheel of bright white light.  Or imagine you are encapsulated by a bubble.  Picture it going through all the colours of the rainbow one by one.  When in each colour also focus on your breathing, deep and slow and count it if you need to.  In to 4 or 6, out for 4 or 6.  Stay in each colour for a few of these breath.  Take care my friend 

[Mazarita]

Hi @eth, hugs and thank you for such a kind post about my crohns anxieties. I am jumping the gun on them really, haven't even had the next test yet (not that I want to). Brain galloping away with bad memories and future projections. But I'm feeling better this morning. Had a solid night's sleep from about 1am with only one awakening, for a short time. Still going to take it easy today, nothing planned. I am pretty speechless about the latest news for you from the NDIS. It seems to augur badly for many if they don't consider bipolar 1 a permanent disability, when scientifically it is know to be just that, and 80% genetic at that (Black Dog Institute). I am angry on your behalf. How are you travelling with the news at this point? Who is able to comfort and support you about this in real life? I'm guessing your SIL and brother would be disappointed on your behalf too. 

Hi @PeppiPatty, interesting and mysterious time of history to write about. I wish you so well with this big project. Yes, it's always great when you are around, PP. I totally understand the need for breaks from the forum too. What you have been going through in real life is intense and it's no wonder you wanted to give your energy there.

Hi @Former-Member, missed your goodnight last night, as I sometimes do. I think by now you might already be off to the centre of your universe. Thinking of you and sending strength and love for this visit.

Hi @Appleblossom, and everyone passing through. Good vibes for today to you.