Hot Chocolate Anyone ?

[Spookytookims]

@Shaz51  If you want my experience you are welcome to tap into it.   I was in deep dpression because of intense PTSD.   I went through some really dark times, really dark.  I wouldn't wish where I went on anybody, not even my antagonist.  Now that said...   I did not turn to medication.

the psych wanted me to and tried to make me.  I even spat out my hidden meds in hospital, lying about taking them, to the nurse who asked me point blank had I taken them.  Yes I know... I'm rebellious, but I know my own mind.   So I can speak for where it sent me doing this without meds.

yes, there is a no emotion state associated it with it.   I even think when I first joined this forum someone asked me something, no idea what it was but I clearly remember my answer because it resonated so deeply in me....   "What matters is, now I can feel."  

For the longest time, I couldn't feel.  So long, I forgot what is was like to be able to feel.  So I don't know if that answers your question for you, but to me that's a resounding yes, it could certainly be his emtional state.  Meaning his emotions are in such turmoil he literally can't feel.  Sounds paradoxical, but having experienced it, that's how it worked for me.

[Former-Member]

Now ..... what was that again @Spookytookims - you dont like Freo?  

Ha ha ha ha ha .......... I think I've got it now.

Sherry 

[Spookytookims]

@Former-Member  And you know what?  I love everything purple!   Everything.....   except freo!!!

I'll even barrack for that collifrrtghuwood  thinga majoozy when they play freo...   if that gives you any insight... and it should  😛  

[soul]

She's a cavoodle @Shaz51. Slowing down in her latter years but wonderful company all the same. 

[soul]

That's the dilemma with meds @Spookytookims and @Shaz51. Sometimes it's a case of damned if you do and damned if you don't. Deciding which is the lesser of the two evils and getting the type and dosage right is a lottery. Maybe one day it will be a lot simpler; perhaps a blood test will be all that is needed. I remember when my mother was on blood thinners. She had constant blood tests throughout until she was put on a different drug. 

Wouldn't it be wonderful if mental illnesses were easily treatable. There's so much we don't know about the human body let alone the mind. 

[Spookytookims]

@soul  yeah, I should have added:-   emotions are based on chemical release, so could also be a combination of med quantities in there too, because they are all about manipulating the chemical release to "play" with  emotions.

[Former-Member]

@soul @Shaz51 @Spookytookims
A definitive test would be wonderful, my Mr Darcy is up to his 15th med trial. How to tell if the current agitation he is feeling is due to a discontinuation effect, relapse or the grief of his diagnosis or a combination is beyond me but there is certainly a large element of the latter. Found a really good article on grieving mental illness which I have posted a link to on the "what's new" tab. Thankfully though I think the treating team are close to finally getting it right as he is the most stable he has been in a long while.

@Former-Member I am sure in 2 weeks time we could don the purrrrrple and hope the wharf workers give us reason to return fire.

@Determined glad the ball went well.

[soul]

Wow @Former-Member - Mr Darcy has really been through the wringer and you too no doubt. Fifteen trials in how long a period? The frustrating part must be to get the meds right and then things can change anyway. What is the longest time he has been good on the one combination?

I started reading that article you posted on grief. It's quite long so I am still working my way through it. 

Somewhat off topic, it got me thinking about something my therapist mentioned the other week. In my case, I am no longer with my BPD partner due to his violent tendencies but I am still experiencing grief from the loss of that relationship as it wasn't all bad. In fact the good stuff was amazingly wonderful. It's just that the bad stuff was the complete opposite. If the breakup had been through death, there would have been a gathering around and support from family and friends. The problems I had been facing were hidden and we had not socialised with others in my circle so it's a whole different scenario. I even received the comment that perhaps I didn't give it a good enough try. 

[Former-Member]

Hi @soul

The posted link really relates to the patient, this is one for carers that I found helpful. I should post this one too.

https://www.google.com.au/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=http://www.carersvictoria.org.au/Assets/File...

[Faith-and-Hope]

Our problem is hidden too @soul .... it still looks to most people like I am just not accepting my hubby's change to an uber-healthy lifestyle ... it is only when his condition rolls over into a truly physical decline that the truth wil be laid bare .... 😔

I can relate to your despair. So glad you got free of that relationship, but I understand the grief .... I am grieving to loss of my husband and father to my children as we live with this imposter .... in the hope it can be switched back when he is finally brought to his knees and diagnosed, and treated .....

Not expecting any magic wand restoration btw .....

Hugs Hon .... 💜💐💕🌷💜💐💕🌷💜