@NatureLover @Anastasia Thank you guys. Me too. Why do we always fixate on the worst possible outcome? Who knows, maybe I’ll go there today and she’ll be like “oh we got this, your ex is going down” never know, maybe things will go my way for a change. That would be nice. But as I write this I feel guilty and undeserving. I have a very low opinion of myself and my brain is telling me I don’t deserve things to go my way. Life would be a lot easier if I didn’t have to constantly argue with myself. I really want to keep my shit together today and not have a god damned melt down. I have cried in public, in front of people, 3 times this past week. 2 of those times were in front of complete strangers. And that’s just the public melt downs. Not the one’s I’ve had at home on the phone, or while hiding in the pantry, or having a sook to myself in the shower. Well, if that doesn’t say I’m a stable person who is a capable and functional parent, I don’t know what does.
