I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I’ll take some awesome photos in the next couple of days so I will tag you in them. @Jynx We are going to a spot that we have to climb up to and the waves crash into the rocks. 

It is helpful. It shows that there is a possibility of getting there. Some days it doesn’t seem that anywhere close is even possible. But sometimes if feels helpful knowing that you guys have been through it and come out the otherside

Just getting home. It was ok. I didn’t get put down too much. I just stayed kinda quiet. I’m glad it’s over though. I just didn’t know what to say to anyone it was a lot to take on though. 

I just got some candles. They have really fancy ones but I just wanted some to just burn. 

How was your morning this morning? 

[Captain24]

I’m around now @tyme.

Yeah. I got him a couple of toys at the pet shop but I also got a lot of treats. We don’t have a pet shop at home. Some treats that my dogs eat are only available at this franchise pet shop. So I stock up when I’m here. Whenever we go to another town there is another pet shop that we go to as well but it’s not as good. 

How has your weekend been?

[tyme]

Makes sense. Imagine if you had a large sized dog! They'd eat you out of house and home! My labrador used to eat everything. Ruby is fussier. @Captain24 

My wkend's been okay. Busy I guess. It's been windy but hot and dry so my hayfever is suffering!

I like the weather though. I shouldn't complain. 

I haven't read above, but you went out tonight?

[Captain24]

I’m going ok @AuntGlow. Dinner out is done and I’m feeling out of sorts now. I just have to watch a tv show with them and then I can go to bed. That won’t be until after 10 though. It’s all feeling a lot right now. 

That's it.. it validates me so it makes me more certain that I’m useless. It’s hard as I don’t see the need for compassion when it’s what is true. 

It was great when we finally got here. Then on Friday someone drove into a power pole and a lot of other things. But it knocked out our power from about 11 until nearly 10:30 so that was a rough day dealing with the stupidity of my parents. 

Being treated like that is just standard, it’s part of everyday life. While it hurts, I am use to it and it totally goes with the belief that I’m not much and have not much to offer. 

I have been to the beach 3 times on my own but it’s only been quick as I haven’t really been given much time. At least it is some free time though

[Captain24]

I know.. they don’t get treats all the time but Jett is fussy so I have to have the right ones! 

How are your sticky notes going or did you spend time with the kids? 

Hay fever is the pits. I hope the wind settles down, I understand what it can do. 

I had to go to dinner with my parents, my brother and his girlfriend (apparently they are back together!), my niece and her boyfriend. It was a lot. I took extra adhd meds to get though it but now I’m overwhelmed a little and I’m exhausted. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 an adventure!! Love it!! Once went on a rock-pool-climb adventure as a kid - we were visiting Tassie and I swear it was like an Indiana Jones movie!! First we had to cross a super rickety, rusty bridge, then wait for a lull between big waves to go hopping along these exposed rocks above the water, then finally had to swim across a deep channel filled with seaweed and with the waves pushing us towards the rocks if we didn't swim fast enough!! It was all to reach this awesome sea-cave - I just remember there being SO MANY CRABS 😂

Aww, so glad that it's helpful when we share our stories hun. That's super meaningful to hear 💜

You made it through!! Hope you had a tasty dinner, even if it was super overstimulating haha. 

Ooooh write down some stuff to release and burn the paper! In a fire-safe way of course haha. I find it therapeutic! 

I do gots to dash hun, can't wait to hear about your adventures next weekend! May the sunsets be glorious, the sand warm, and the waves soothing 💜

Niiiiight!

[Captain24]

Oh.. it’s not that epic! @Jynx 

I just have to deal! 

can I tag you next Friday after my appointment? 

[tyme]

NO way??? They are back together??? @Captain24  Then again, I need to keep outta it. I'll talk in my head lol.

Sticky notes? I ddin't end up writing any more. I'll do it tomorrow. I have to think of all the admin-ish things I have to do. 

I haven't spent much time with the kids at all. I heard that they all got their vaccinations yesterday. The firecracker was fine, the middle kid was fine, then the eldest (who was last) LOST IT! She was hyperventialiating and freaking out so in the end 3 adults had to hold her to get her vaccinations before she goes over seas. (I laughed when she told me). She said, "E and M didn't cry. I did. Everyone was looking at me when I came out."

I need to get my vaccinations soon too. I've booked it for two weeks time. 

Glad you spent some time with family. I know it's hard, but these are just some of the obligations in life. As I said, they wont' be around forever. It makes me also worry about my parents. I literally see them once a year or two. I don't even talk to them.

But in a way, thanks for sharing about your family dinner. I'll contact my parents tonight after I log off. I'll just even send them a msg

[Captain24]

I know… I don’t get them or what’s going on. I think she is just using and abusing him! @tyme 

Maybe you could just give yourself a rest for a day or two? I hope you are looking after yourself?

Sounds like a traumatic experience for her. At least it was only one not three! Think of the positive s. 😜 At least they are done though. I hope you get yours done soon. 

I know they won’t be here forever. I’m spending pretty much all day with them for a week so it’s a lot but you’re right it won’t be forever. 

Im glad you are going to contact them. I know that with my brother a simple text msg to mum means a lot! 

[tyme]

I'm wrapping up but will see you when I'm on next @Captain24