Lived Experience Forum

[Boonana]

@Former-Member and @Zoe7 I’m just leaving now! How have yous been?

[Former-Member]

Thankyou so much for your message @Faith-and-Hope 💜💖🌷

Prayers very much appreciated. 

When all this started we had quite good understanding specialists. Except the private one we paid for. Actually 2 of them we paid for and I was terribly disappointed. But the public ones (quite a few) were quite good. 

This time we’re dealing with a different illness and I feel traumatised by their treatment of us. 

I am shocked at how rude and arrogant they have been. It’s taken me weeks to “get over it”, well I still am trying to. 

I really don’t want to have to go there again. But there’s no choice. 

I was full of praise of the public hospital until now. 

Such a pity that such awful uncaring people have jobs there. Then others there are very kind and caring. 

Anyway, I think I had better head off and try relaxing and do my positive affirmations etc. I still try hard to move forward. Even when I don’t feel like it. D needs me and there’s no choice. Plus I hate feeling like this. 

Sending love and hugs to you Faith and Hope @Zoe7 @Former-Member 

I appreciate your kindness and support. 

I will pop in when I can. 

Im often too embarrassed to pop by, because I don’t want to come on and whinge. But hopefully I can come on and distract and just chat. 

Take care and Nighty night. 💖😴😘

[Former-Member]

That would be lovely @Former-Member ,  I look forward to that. Stay strong my friend, as you clearly are. Many could not cope with all that you are dealing with, yet here you are .. Still standing. You really are quite the inspiration.

Hi @Boonana  How was tea with your Nan?

[Boonana]

I had a nice day with my family and we ended with a game of spotlight and all my cousins enjoyed that! They played for over an hour and it started raining but it didn’t stop them 😂
I also made a cake this morning with my step sister and we brought that with us which they also liked. I’ll post a photo of that soon when I get them. They aren’t on my phone..

[Former-Member]

Well that  sounds like a pretty good day @Boonana .  I'm glad. I look forward to seeing the photo when you post it.

[Boonana]

It was a chocolate mud cake and a vanilla mud cake and in the center there was a circle cut all the way through and was filled with m&m’s 

[Boonana]

@Former-Member do you struggle with thoughts?

[Former-Member]

That depends on what you mean by 'thoughts' @Boonana .  If you mean do I have voices telling me to do things, no I dont .. thankfully.  I have been diagnosed with PTSD and also OCD, both anxiety disorders.  But as is common for many PTSD sufferers, I get regular bouts of depression as well.  Do I have suicidal thoughts at times ... yes I do.  But I dont believe I would ever act on them.  Is that what you meant by your question?  My apologies if I have misinterpreted.

Your cake sounds delicious, but I'm still waiting for it to be cleared in order to see it.

Sherry 

[Boonana]

I meant thoughts of suicide.. how do you not want to act on them? How do you cope?
Also do you self harm?
Sorry for the questions, I just really need someone to talk to about it rn..

[Former-Member]

Ahhhh wow ...... that cake looks decadent indeed!  @Boonana 

Fantastic job from you and your (I think you said) step or half sister?  Very clever.  Make sure you keep little Eddie a long way from all that chocolate!   Ohhh ... do I see a caramello egg there, cut in half and oozing just a little?  My favourite.

Anyway ... how are you feeling tonight?  I will be heading off to bed shortly, so must say good night. Will you be okay?