A long rave

[Mazarita]

Thanks, @Appleblossom. Home alone here and enjoying the solitude for now. Hope you are finding some pleasurable moments this evening.

[CheerBear]

Now it is much more the usual time for me to be at my coffee spot and thinking of you @Mazarita. Chest infections are horrible and that's rotten timing 🙁 It's great to hear that even though you're not feeling well, your mood is good though.

I hope it clears soon for you. My most chirpy bird friend and I send our loudest feel better soon to you 💛

[Mazarita]

Good morning, @CheerBear, thanks for your lovely message. 

Bad night with the chest and lungs here. Woke up in breathing distress and was up for a couple of hours doing steam inhalation, as well as puffing on the inhaler. Wheezing like bagpipes. I've coughed so much and so violently that my head, ribs and diaphragm hurt. Eventually I settled things down enough to get to sleep again. Not quite as bad this morning but still thick with it all. Rang the hospital. They have rescheduled my procedure for a month from now. Bad timing with this virus but I'm okay with waiting longer. I really appreciate you and the friendly bird, saying get better soon. 

Hope today is much healthier for you and everyone reading. 

[Former-Member]

Hello Mazy @Mazarita

Hoping you get well soon I don't imagine your looking forward to the procedure but do imagine it will be better 'over and done with'.

I'm doing ok, better than I was, still a bit off kilter. My quietness on the Forum hasn't really been on purpose, it's just that I don't really know what to say. It's a bit like there's too many people and I can't cope. Too much going on. Perhaps I'm retreating back in.

I've had a few walks in the forest in the past week or so, it's been raining on and off and I won't go in when it's wet, I only have a 2 wheel drive. I've come across a few strange things; there were the remains of 3 pigs - very professionally butchered - just the head and skins left; the dogs scored a neatly severed foot each. At first I didn't think much of it, perhaps just a little relief; I thought 'well there's 3 {they weren't adults} that won't grow into cow sized pigs'. But the thoughts grew - someone is out there doing this, what if my young fella is running through the bush and is mistaken as a young pig? I went to a different track, mainly so the dogs wouldn't roll in the remains, when we first came across them they were fresh, it doesn't take long for pig remains to stink to high heaven. It was a much less used track, the entrance is quite overgrown, difficult to see if you don't know it's there. As I wandered along I noticed a couple of eskies not far off the track. I thought that was pretty odd, thought it might have something to do with the pigs? I couldn't help myself - I had to look. They had been there a long time, there had been a grey cover of sorts that had deteriorated with the weather and age. Despite my better judgement, again I couldn't help myself but had to open them and see what was inside. I don't know if you'll understand this (I'm thinking you will), it was the makings of a very un-country kitchen. Again I found myself concerned about the type of people that visit my forest. I went to an actual road {dirt} that's just outside the forest, it has a dry creek bed that I enjoy walking along and quickly takes you back into the forest. This road had been very done up, in recent years before a 4wd would even have had trouble, but for whatever reason it's a really good road now. When I reached the dry creek bed I could see there'd been a lot of activity there. Many trees had been downed and they had even mulched them, which I thought quiet strange - normally they would just bulldoze them pushing them to the side. I decided not to walk along the dry creek bed and wandered further up along the road. We hadn't gone there before. Not far down was a track leading into the forest, I dedided to walk along that. There were dozens of bodies of bones, many skulls, quite fascinating. Amongst them I found at least 3 dogs, I put it down to all the baiting and trapping they do in there, but don't understand why all these animals were on the side of the track? The odd thing I found there though wasn't animal related, just off the track, a bit like the eskies, there was a dressing table? I found that really weird. Nothing else around it, the mirror was gone and it was empty.

Well, that's the end of my odd adventures story. Hope it gave you some entertainment while your getting better 🙂

Love you Mazy

[Mazarita]

Hi @Former-Member. Niqua, thanks so much for your long message yesterday, despite you not feeling the best and perhaps not in the mood for lots of posting at present. I know how the forum can feel sometimes like there are too many people to get around to, as much as we would like to. A degree of 'self care' is needed with the forum too, I think. I have had 'burnt out' feelings on several occasions over the years I've been here. At the moment, I'm in a similar place where I can't really manage wandering around too many threads, talking to too many different people. My mind just can't always cope with that. Generally I recognise that there will be times of greater and lesser engagement and that's part of the natural flow of 'forum life' for me.

Your forest story yesterday was chilling. I have to admit I worry about you wandering around some of these places, as much as I also love to hear your adventures. Some of it read like an actual novel (the dressing table in the forest, mirror gone, what an image!) Perhaps it's best that I didn't actually get the reference to the 'very un-country kitchen'? Take care in your wanderings, my friend. 

As expected, my procedure has been delayed for another month. That's okay but I hope I can get some treatment for the physical issue soon after that. I've had this condition for more than three months now. They won't treat me until they can see what's going on. I'm not looking forward to the procedure but don't feel dreadful about it because I don't have to do the same prep I did for last year's test, the one that makes me so sick. I expect this procedure will be simpler and easier on me physically.

I had a decent night's sleep last night and feel a bit better today, though still in my nightie and coughing and having trouble breathing still. Another restful, healing day here. So glad I've had a video to work on while I've been sick with this. I would have gone out of my mind with boredom without it. Have finished one stage of it for now, waiting for collaborator feedback.

Well, I don't have much news, as you can see, aside from the ins and outs of illness. Thanks for caring enough to listen to it, dear Niqua. Love you too. 

[PeppiPatty]

Dear @Mazarita @Former-Member @CheerBear @Appleblossom @outlander

Yes, also I realised that I needed a break for a while from the Sane Forums : it can get a little overwhelming being on Sane Forums because there is so many people.....but you just do what you can.....

I have in my mind: @Former-Member and @Appleblossom and @Mazarita & @Shaz51 right now. But this is what is happening in my life:

Mr G is contstantly being paranoid.

I have cards to write: only written one.

Cleaning the home.

Get shopping.

Take Arlo for a walk.

Get my sewing work done.

Writing.

Bugetting.

Write cards  to my sons.

Copng with the judgements of my neighbours.

So you do what you need to do. Thats it. This is what I think at least. At least I remembered to take my meds and while Mr G is constantly talking: Im writing to you. 

[Shaz51]

Hello @Mazarita, @PeppiPatty, @Former-Member< @CheerBear, @Appleblossom

You just do what you can @Former-Member 

there are some friends on here will work out how much time to spend on here , Like me I hardly ever to night time after 9pm , then I know @Faith-and-Hope and @Mazarita are here at night time

[outlander]

@Former-Member ❤❤❤ i appreciate anything you say ❤

[Mazarita]

Hi @PeppiPatty 

I'm glad you are back from your break. 

What you live with daily is very challenging and I would honestly fall apart under such stress. Glad to hear you are getting a break out for walks with Arlo, and that you are sewing and writing too. How frustrating the judgements of neighbours. Good on you for remembering to take meds, an achievement in self-care, and for being able to write to us through constant talk! Your life sounds full. 

Hi @Shaz51, scottish sister Hope your health is treating you well today. 

Hi @outlander 

Hi everyone, hoping the evening is kind to all here. 

[Shaz51]

hello my scottish sister @Mazarita 

yesterday i over did it , today mr shaz was not too good , so i said today will be rest day

Well mr shaz slept for 7 hours today wow

I am feeling tired but glad to have had a rest day and got my hair done this afternoon

how are you xx