A long rave

[Shaz51]

Self care right now important., Very important @MoonGal

proud of you too xx, I should of done that the other night  i will have to remember next time

[Shaz51]

well I am off the doctor`s and to visit mum @Mazarita, @MoonGal, @eth

speak to you after

Mr shaz does not know what to do , so i think he will still be on the couch when i get home

ohh i have to water mum`s plants too xx

[eth]

Hi @MoonGal  I often 'jump start' (sitting up already before I even know I'm awake)  during the night too and I agree , going back to bed isn't always something we can do, but it's the first step in getting more sleep.  My psychiatrist recently put me on a med that blocks adrenalin receptors and tho' I'm still having the troubled dreams I don't react so much physically.

 As nice as it can be when depression lifts  it's great that you are recognizing that you might be a bit elevated - again it's the first step in keeping insight into what's going on.  When I feel that way I try to keep busy quietly, delay urges to spend, use music ... I'm sure you have some ideas in your 'tool box' for such times.  And at least lie down with eyes shut even if not sleeping.  Focus on breath.    Sending calm your way.

[Mazarita]

Enjoy your time out of the house today, @Shaz51. Hope it's a good one for you. 

[eth]

@Mazarita  last week we talked in depth about one of the lesser traumas (safer to get into) and spent some time identifying a calm, safe place for me to focus on at the end of an EMDR session.  I think we're going to do the EMDR practice for the first time today.  Thanks for following my progress on that.  Of course, having said it was a 'lesser' trauma, once we got right into it even I was shocked at some of the moments remembered now that I am in a safe place to face it.  And the safe calm place I have is right there in her office.  Not even the cabin as things get a bit tricky to navigate with bro and sil at times, as you know.

[eth]

Hope today goes well for you @Shaz51

[Mazarita]

Sending gentle and kind feelings for your first in depth session today, @eth. Good to hear that the trauma work is focussed in the psychologist office and that you will be doing exercises at the end of each session to bring you back to a safe place before leaving. 

[Shaz51]

for you too @eth, @Mazarita

[Mazarita]

Catching up on messages and replies over the past day or so now...

@CheerBear, wondering how your meeting with the mental health worker went yesterday, and what your thoughts and feelings about volunteering are after it. I hear you about the pain you feel in relation to finishing your degree at this time. There is plenty of time in your life to do that though. Trying to inspire me recently, my psychiatrist told me about a man he knew who got his degree in his 80s! Not that it will take that long for you by any means. I believe you will get there when the time is right.

@Exoplanet, I had a real wipe out day yesterday after doing such good things on Monday. But undeterred I shall keep moving forward as much as possible today. You are right that, even with a lost day here and there, I am definitely much better than I was a couple of weeks ago. Glad to hear your sleep patterns are slotting back into place. I am in the process of trying to rewire mine so that I don't fall back into the all-night awake patterns I was in for so long. Yay for the netting being finished, well done! Getting closer now to the big fence job being done too. Exciting. 

@Teej, sorry to hear you had a flat, teary day yesterday. It's okay to share those things here. Your veggies and herbs sound lovely. I'm so impressed with all the garden stories I read on the forum. I barely remember to water my few pot plants. Luckily there's been a fair bit of rain lately!

@saturnzoon, great that you have nature in the way of birds in the tree at your place. I find that being aware of nature, especially birds, helps at the best and worst of times. All of us part of the wonderful cycle of nature, despite what we might be going through in our minds. So glad you are finding it rewarding being here. It's great to have you with us!

@Sans911, good to see you here too. Glad to hear you are coming out the other side of a long and very difficult time. 

@PeppiPatty, it sounds like things have been very difficult indeed with Mr Buddha. Such a relief that he will be getting some help to manage things very soon. And that you can hopefully look forward to an easier time of it soon too. Best to both of you. I watched that show about the man who was homeless and living in the bush, and then went on to study and gain a PhD. Incredible life's journey and so inspiring. Glad to read too that it helped Mr Buddha to see that.

@frog, hope you enjoy your day off from work today, are able to relax and recuperate. Good to see you here.

@Appleblossom, @Faith-and-Hope and everyone, hope today goes well for you. 

[Exoplanet]

Hello Everyone 🙂
@eth7 naps sounds like pretty frustrating broken sleep, I hope your psychologist can help, sending you love 
@CheerBearSorry you had frustration with sleep last night Especially after a big day! Hope you can 'go slow' today & that the morning birds sang extra beautifully for you  I'd be thinking the medication change has a lot to do with it all, hoping your body adjusts to it very soon 
@TeejI'm glad you enjoyed the camping trip 🙂 You've probably got a better chance of holding on to the reality of it than me 😉 I really love the gardening trips 🙂 I'm desperately
trying to draw inspiration from them. I always used to make some kind of effort to grow
something {at the very least a certain green herb}, but the past couple of years . . .
nothing. It was horribly hot last summer & they're saying it's going to be worse this
one, add the lack of moisture to that & everything just goes crispy . . . it's a real put-off.  Hugs for the flatness & a hanky for the tears, love to you
@saturnzoonHugs for the deep hard moments, we all have them & your right about this forum, the love & support from understanding souls makes all the difference in my life  Sorry your older son was inconsiderate, I don't blame you for hanging up in fact it's probably better than yelling & screaming.
@Sans911Hugs for your year, hoping the following decades will be so much better 
@Shaz51 So happy to make you smile Shaz  I'm good, feeling a bit 10 foot tall & bullet proof from the camping trip, enjoying planning the next one {it'll probably only take a year 😄 } Sorry to hear your feeling a bit yuk  Hope the tests come back clear XxX Sending you love ❤️
@PeppiPattyI'm sorry to hear your husbands challenges have been overcoming him & affecting you so strongly  I think that daze is horrible, that 'this isn't really happening' 'this can't be real'. I'm glad Mr Buddha is strong enough to see his actions aren't healthy & is seeking help, I hope it comes soon for both your sakes  Love to you
@Mazarita I think I do the 'reverse psychology' sometimes too 🙂 But then again, other times when I put something on here, I feel a commitment & go through with it - so . . . 6 to 1, half a dozen to the other 😄 Good luck with your achievments today 
@MoonGal @Faith-and-Hope