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[Sans911]

Hi @outlander, @Zoe7, @Faith-and-Hope, @Snowie @CheerBear @Teej. Missing you all.

[outlander]

Missing you too @Sans911 💜

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜 @Sans911 .....

[Teej]

Hi @Sans911👋. 

Lovely to see you in real time. 

Hi 👋 @Faith-and-Hope, @outlander

[Zoe7]

Missing you too @Sans911 but hoping you are still having an adventure Hon. Another half day for me tomorrow at work - a bit flat today but starting to get into the planning more tonight - will fill you in how it goes tomorrow. Hugs and hugs 

[outlander]

@Sans911

[Sans911]

Morning lil Sis @outlander. I'm relaxing at my my sister's home.

[outlander]

morning sis, im missing you but hoping your having a good time with family @Sans911

was the rest of your travelling ok?

[Sans911]

@outlander

Yes, the rest of the travelling has been OK. I've gone through some beautiful areas of South Australia yesterday. It was an enjoyable, but long day. I got a bit irritated at the end of the day.

It's been nice to see my family, but I feel so disconnected from them. They're talking about things that I'm not interested in, and talking a lot about a particular person that they're connected to, forgetting that this same person sexually abused me for three years. So somehow I'm supposed to forgive and forget, and move on. And there's something wrong with me if I can't.

I don't know where I belong in this world. I don't belong with my biological family, I don't belong with my foster family and I have no in between belonging. I don't fit anywhere. And I find this incredibly hard to deal with. I can't wait to go home next week.

And still the weight piles on, to the point nothing fits any more. I can't stand being like this. It's totally unacceptable.

So I feel so guilty that I'm not totally enjoying time with my family, who are lovely people. I just feel more and more disconnected.

How are you sis

[outlander]

aww sis, so much happening all at once. im not surprised your feeling disconnected. One place that i know you definently belong to is here on Sane although i know it doesnt really the offline world as i get the same way. i would come be with you in a heartbeat if i could.

no, you dont have to just get over it nor is there anything wrong with you. its easy for them to say/think that because they arent the ones who went through it. Hugs and hugs


Hmmm in regards to weight gain, i was put onto something a while back to help counteract the side effects of the meds i was on. Its a common medication used for diabetes-more so type 2. i couldnt keep up with them though casue they were the size of horse tablets. perhaps your gp will prescibe you something like that along with a healthy diet and your exercise. You can see some weight management nurses for free as well, i have one in my area that i see to help keep myself on track esp since i have a really bad sweet tooth.


i finally finished my second last assignment. it included a 10 page thing on an illness along with the other 6 sections.
ill start the last one soon enough. its a speaking task so i need to practice my pronounciation and record it before submitting.

im abit all over the place but its weird and hard to explain,alot of which is that belonging and lonliness stuff too. Not all that sure whats setting it off but it just doesnt want to settle either so will have to keep working on that. @Sans911